The exact time is hidden from me. But, on the scale of eternity it will be soon. My last Holy Communion will come soon. The years have sped on. The Easter Communions, the First Friday Communions have strengthened my union with Jesus, have brought sanctifying grace to me.
A closer relationship with Our Lord has resulted. I have tried to grow more and more into His Likeness by my reception. Yet, no matter how many Communions I will receive until the last, I count on receiving the last Communion to prepare me for the end.
Perhaps I should prepare my confessions more carefully. Later I may not be able to con-fess. I may be ill and weak. Or, death might come through an road accident, a fire, without a moment's notice.
It is better to make things secure now while I am able. I will then approach each confession as my last from now on. I want contrition for my sins. I must be strong, yet humble and trust in God completely and depend upon His Mercy.
Reflection on the crucifix is important. It may awake the sorrow that is in my heart for my many sins. At the hour of death Jesus rewards the habits of life. He will come to me and help my weak-ness at my last confession. He will help me attain the sorrow that will purify my heart and soul.
Dear Lord, I ask Thee for Thy Mercy. Lessen my dread of death, my sorrow at leaving friends and family, of coming before the Throne of God to make an accounting.
Let me receive Extreme Unction to strengthen me at the hour of death. I put my trust in the prayers of Thy Holy Church at the hour of death as she prays that by the holy anointing and by Thy tender mercy my soul will be roused to response of sorrow for sin. Let me taste the Holy Viaticum before I go into eternity.
Today, I will rehearse for the final time the reception of Thy Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity in the Holy Eucharist after receiving Penance. I most firmly believe that in the Sacrament I will receive the only begotten Son of God. I want to live and die in this faith. I want to increase my faith. T
Today, as I receive, I give Thee the most loving of welcomes. Give me for my last Commun-ion such faith and fervent desire that my soul may be roused from the apathy and lukewarmness which has characterised my poor miserable existence here on earth.